I don’t have kids, and to say I don’t have kids “yet” would be inaccurate. Right now, having kids is out of my control due to infertility.

The cycles started, the doctors’ appointments, counted days, medication trials, all of it! Our hope slowly began to fade as each month went by. Until October of 2016 – we did it! And then we lost it. Is he going to love me through this? I’m failing at the only thing I have ever given 100% to. As a wife, a mother - I am failing my husband.

I’ve never received an explanation for why my body is seemingly unable to do what it’s supposed to be able to do – produce life.